Quotes that inspire me. Pictures and lyrics that mean something to me. Random facts and artwork that make me think. Memories I don't want to forget. Rants that will probably be deleted.
If you don't want to hear my opinion then don't read my blog, last time I checked that's what these things are for?
p.s. you never forget your first love, whether it was the boy next door or the triple-brother act from tulsa, oklahoma, called hanson.
one of my best friends said some of the sweetest things to me last night, he was so nervous and flustered that it just showed how much he meant everything he was saying. i'm just not ready for it, because aside from making my heart grin from artery to artery -- i didn't have much of a response. but, i didn't want to respond just to respond, he deserves more from me than me saying what ever it is that he may want to hear.
It plagues me to admit this, but I’ve caved and started thinking again. I’m thinking futuristically, and positively in a way.. I’ve never understood the way my heart works. It’s like my heart longs for something difficult, and tough to make happen.. I’d rather date someone who lived on the complete other side of the country that I saw a handful of times a year or less, instead of someone who was closer by that I saw whenever I wanted to for the most part. I have a big downfall when it comes to people getting tired of me. I can’t handle it.. And with long distance relationships, you don’t see each other enough to get tired of each other. You appreciate every minute you spend together, from the minute you place eyes on each other, to the minute you have to walk away. And it’s a painful, long wait to see them again.. But it’s worth it. The problem is finding someone who is capable of handling the distance.. Better yet, who is willing and wants to handle the distance, because they don’t want anyone but you. Out of everyone who is miles closer, maybe older, maybe not as busy.. They want you. They want the difficulty that will come with you. They are prepared to handle the trust issues, the over-analyzation, the missing, the inability to be there at the snap of a finger, the planning to visit, all of these things that make up a long distance love. I don’t know about you.. But I’d rather have someone who genuinely works to be with me, instead of someone who takes for granted every time they see me.
I am nothing but a ball of contradiction. I am happy, but I am so unhappy at the same time. I’m a jealous girl, but at the same time I know how to not give a shit. I am kind, thoughtful, and loving, but also very full of hatred at the same time. I’m very open about my thoughts and feelings, but at the same time I bottle them up. I’m independent and don’t need a relationship to make me happy, but I’m an entirely different person when I’m in a happy relationship. I’ve never made sense to myself, and I don’t know how I will ever make sense to anyone else. Then again, nobody will ever know everything about me. Not intentionally, just the sheer fact of the matter. No one will ever know anybody’s entire life story. I could write you an autobiography not even leaving a single detail out, and you still wouldn’t know everything. But I guess that’s what people find interesting about me.. I’m like a never-ending story.. A challenge
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